FUCK YOU.

19.4.05

let's just do this ONE more time.

jamie yeo and carrie chong came to MY SCHOOL. HURRAY!
i hope jamie and carrie remember me! HURRAY!
I PASSED MY 2.4! HURRAY HURRAY HURRAY!!!

haha. this is so retareded. anyway. my whole body's aching like fuck. ok fine the legs only.

as of today, i no longer have the mind to think of words to make you love me.
as of today, i am emotionally scarred; physically scarred as well.
as of today, i promise to not give up on you till the time comes.

you dont know why i do what i do to myself. you don't see all the contradiction i see.
you dont know what i use to combat such emotions. you dont know how hard it is to see friends against each other.

i really miss you, i really really do. whatever words you say whatever actions you give. i am still gonna keep on trying till the day i finally bleed all i can.

on Vineland past the candle shrine that melts into the street design
she waits - for someone
tonight she'll give herself away
she'll break apart all by herself

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10:08 PM