FUCK YOU.

6.5.05

danny had to walk in with a gun

so you think the whole world revolves you.
so you think that she's all interested in you.
so you think she would never check?
go to hell.
so you think everyone is very interested in you?!
so you think everyone want's to know what goes on in you life?
Karen Tan. so what if i tell people you are playing in cheers. you are anyway.
my idol's gonna find out anyway. they are gonna publish it. and after they publish it i'm gonna scream to the whole world you are playing. not happy. too bad.

shooot. i think i am really in a bad mood. i'm like pmsing. as in post menstral syndrome.
everyday's so fucked up. i guess the exams fuck people up. or maybe it's just my stinking attitude to life. but i dont know if anyone gives a fucking damn. hoho.
let's just take matchsticks. light it, then blow it out and press it against our flesh and feel the pain. and then your skin starts to bubble and you get a fucking blister. that was so fucking random.

oh wahooo! look just who came to cheer me. nobody! you fucking ass. i am so fucking irritated. maybe a nice game of fucking wiffle ball can fucking cheer me up.

my fucking day was so fucking ruined by zenn eng yu qi. i am so 2 faced. that's right. i am 2 faced. at least i am better than you. fucking 4 face. go throw yourself at some shaun ong whatever. maybe if he doesn't love you or like you the way you do. you can go shave your head go bald. be a mun(monk+nun) everyone is tired of your nonsense. i'm serious. dead serious. i thought you were nice. i thought i could talk to you. i trusted you. i believed you. YOU FUCKING LIED. AND I WAS SO FUCKING BLIND AND FUCKING NAIVE TO HAVE TRUSTED YOU. THANK GOD YOU NOW HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS IN SCHOOL EXCEPT FOR YOUR SQUIRMY ACCQUAINTANCES THAT YOU ARE GETTING TO KNOW AND THEY DO THE SAME THING TO THEM.

anyway the fucking day was so fucking terrible. in the morning i saw sad scenes. sad glimpses. really i take pity on this person. though she's done so much and someone claims that she deserves alll she's getting right now. well... you can always say it's biasness. but who the fuck am i to judge.

today. i shall just go jump off the building.or from my classroom. it's just the second floor. i wont die. i wouldn't i couldn't anyway. i really have NO idea why i am so angry. maybe it's sidney sheldon. maybe it's the way i speak. maybe it's the way i am so uneducated compared to the people in my class. maybe. i'm just inferior to all my surroundings.

whatever. i am the strawberry girl, and i deserve more than just strawberries and cream. i deserve much more than that. and the fucking world just ain't ready for me. the strawberry girl.

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