FUCK YOU.

18.6.05

gimme morphine.

yes. i needed morphine like 20-40 minutes ago. i had this major stomach ache. i could have died. and then i went to shit. but instead of shitting i ended up vomitting liquid. then i thought i was sick or on an empty stomach (the pain felt abit like cramps and abit like gastric) and i was like suffering in silence. the pain was unbearable. then i went downstairs. had a hot tea and pandan cake. and the pandan cake made me feel worst. so i got another glass of hot water. drank it and i felt like vomitting then i had a glass of sugarred water. and started to feel better. o.O yes, i know. i'm odd. then i held that cup walked back up, hoping that i wouldn't faint. (i was abit paranoid la!) i sat infront of the fridge on the 2nd floor and just looked for the medicine box. i went thru the whole box looking for medicines. i found panadol menstrual. but it was empty in the box. then i found this tablet for subsiding hyperactivity of gastric juices. i took 2. then i got i found charcoal. i took 1 first. then i still couldn't bear the pain took the subsiding hyperactivity of gastric juices again. i took 2 then. i didnt really feel that much better. then i found panadol extra i took 2. but still i wasn't ok. then i took the last charcoal pill. therefore i total i took 8 tablets, but all that still couldn't save me and i just lied down in front of the fridge i fell asleep. i woke up feeling like last week sunday. :D which is a good thing mind you.

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