fish nuggets.

failure to comply.

2005-07-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. it's 1.11am and i wore a fucking sari for the racial harmony celebration. HAHA. yes i wore it cos i hoped that that person would come. but fuck the person didnt come anyway wearing the sari was ok just that it was kind off long and i had trouble to move and during the mass dance when they were doing the fusion dance i had only one hand to do the hand movements and the other somewhere down there pulling the sari. it was quite a sight to see ME in a sari. but what the heck. it was for fun.

my school hates me, my school's P and VPs hates me. it's ok, i hate them too.

false allegations.

2005-07-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

marrissa's not wearing a bra damnit! this is so DTEH. and she has like no nipples la. what the fuck. this is so horny. -_-" anyway i've collected donations in like a period of 2 hours i collected $98. damnn i'm good. HAHA. i'm watching THE O.C. and i think LOST. sucks. Marrissa's so skinny.

today was ok. school was ok.. it was odd, accounts was bad i had a test and thruout the test, i was just looking ouut the fucking window. HEH. i was looking at people doing p.e. :) and yeah. after school went to see miss goh. and she's like damn angry at me and someone else. miss goh's mean. i know what she is thinking. anyway, suprisingly the rest of theday i was messaging tingxi. :D until like 10.30 she went to sleep maybe. and i'll wear the sari if she comes for the danceathon tomorrow. :D hahaha. but that's provided the bavani really brings la.

i'm now watching one tree hill. tsk.

ok i've gotta bring the chocolate for valarie koh tomorrow. she wants. :) anyway today was nice la. i kept talking to that person today. i cant believe i like that person again. but then that person is really good looking and smart and cool. and funny. though that person does make me feel stupid. i think that person rocks.

i love THAT person.

so long astoria

2005-07-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as I'm calling out your name

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

You and me
we shared a mystery
we were so close
like honey to the bee

And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way

Firefly come back to me
the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

Fly firefly through the sky
come and play with my desire
don't be long don't ask why
I can't wait another night

a*teens. nice song. :)

a full masterpiece.

2005-07-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

actually. i think i want to pon school tomorrow. ahh fuck. but my mother would NEVER let me pon. wtf la.

I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. <3>
hahaha.

anyway. i feel retarded. i sent to that to someone. and it wasn't meant for that someone, but that's how i feel about that someone. but i told that someone, sorry i sent to the wrong person. and now i think that person thinks i like someone else. :(

noooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate real estate agents

2005-07-18T00:01:00.001+08:00

what the fuck la. i'm like pissing the fuck out of myself. i'm damn fucking curious who the fuck that motherfucker is la. but if i ask, then she's prolly thing i'm one sick fucker. and then come to think of it, she may never fucking care. so i shouldnt fucking like her or whatever la. anyway. there's this thing. my sister screwed the fucking computer. BUT FUCK. that's besides the point.
I'M SO FUCKING DEVASTATED. i dont want to go to fucking school. i dont want to see that fucking. what it is. i'll sleep at 3. i fucking hate myselff

FUCKING GWENDOLYN FUCK WEE FUCK EE FUCK WEI.

such a nice fucking name. I HATE THAT FUCKING. as much as i fucking love you, but i fucking hate you for the times you make me cry. FUCK IT ALL. i dont need you. i just want you. FUCK IT ALL.

do you love the real estate agent?

2005-07-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

*music: she spider, mew.

i love that song. but i love you more. :\ HAHA.

Hold on little girl
Show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
When it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside i hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside i hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwhile
And i can make you start to smile

galvenized

2005-07-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

music: september, green day.

when i was going home last night, when i sat in joanne's cab that song was played on air. and with it, it made me think about you. you always make me cry. but i dont know why.
i really love you.

tenacity

2005-07-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

i'm surfing for tattoo shops in THE SUNNY ISLAND OF SINGAPORE. i want a tattoo. for fun. :) chess says shes getting one at the end of the year. lots of things happened on friday. went to mandarin hotel. stayed there at about 10 went to cine to find food ate abit satat yoshi talked to jeremy, kenny, leon tay, victoria, soon leng, ra, maryanne, joanne and fangzi. then after that all of us except victoria and soon leng went to orchard tower. went to see transvestites. HAHA. was fucking funny how they flirted with the men. and then at 2.45 got kicked out of the fucking hotel. damnn pissed. then, ra, fz, jo, me, jeremy leon tay went to ailin's house t crash. :D today alin had a party i felt out so i went home. HOHO. anyway, tingxi had a concert today, it was so bad! i wanted ask her out.. i wanted to watch as welll, but i went late. L :(

ceremonial liabilities.

2005-07-16T04:38:00.000+08:00

whatever the fuck is, i hate RITA. whatever the fuck her surname. kicked us out of the fucking hotel. she thinks shes damn big la. what the fuck la! anyway. jeremy is fucking cool! :D

I LOVE. __.

oooh...
she so horny
she tried to get on me.

HAHAHA

televised cremations.

2005-07-12T02:00:00.000+08:00

i hate memories. i love cutting myself. and there's no way i'm gonna stop.

even if the world wasn't against me; i'll make it be against me.

solvents

2005-07-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

can i be your shadow, the one that follows you around?
can i be your guardian angel the one who can make you feel safe and sound?
i'll be everything you want me to be.
will you be there the way i'll be there for you?
i just wished you could have loved me too.

OOOMPH. and there i was, i'm so cool and all. ah dang! gonna steal that dvd watch it everyday. and pause it at the particular moment. i'm so screwed up. (ps. paris hilton's song, screwed is literally SCREWED) anyhows i hate school. it's so unCOOl. i want to study abroad. no, i want to go to school but i dont want to study and do those nonsense things like what they call it.. ermm.. housework? ahh! nono. not house work. HOMEWORK. those son of guns. shot me in my damn foot. oh wells. i traded phone with joanne. i dont know why. and tomorrow. i'm gonna change with RAVINDER. heehee. :) did i mention i went home with hannah foong. OH FOR CRYING OUT LOUD, what the dang was i doing?!! HOHO.

digression.

2005-07-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

i'm too tired to go to school tomorrow. well, what the fuck. it's the day that guy wants to see me, errr. what's his name? mr fuck! yeah! mr fuck. eh.. no.. mr tan. ah wells. sound the fucking same. anyway my dad kept scolding the maid today. telling her she was fucked up, but damnit it's true. anyway i feel bad for saying. "fuck" anyhow anyday. i used to like to say fuck(HAHA), but now i'll stop. tsk. when you say it, it's ok. but then when you hear it, it's another thing. yeah. totally agree with T.

beaten to pulp in Russia.

2005-07-10T19:18:00.000+08:00

i'm very very tired. training was tiring. and i went to the gym before that, or maybe it's just that i went to the gym to work therefore i was tired at training. whatever it is. btw, Stacy has 2001 admirers! HAHAHA!

i want food, i want anastasia myskina, i want amelie mauresmo, i want emilie loit. i want T. i want S. i want T. i want S. so stupid right. i want so many things. SPOILT LA. fuck you. bubbye.

sony ericsson k750! soon you will be MINE.

aids in digestion!

2005-07-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

i like the way you touch me.
flick my ear.
and call me darling.
but all that doesnt mean anything.

i was towning between 1.30 to 8pm. I'M FUCKING TIRED. :( i can see myself with LONGer hair in 4-5 months time. HEEHEE. i've got a fucking ulcer in my mouth. i want food. but it hurts so bad.

i want you to notice me, know something that not many know. engraved in blood is your name on my arm.

uncanny repetitions.

2005-07-09T02:16:00.000+08:00

hello fucktards who still actually bother reading this blog..

it is 2.20am. and i'm cheebye tired. i can like just fall asleep now. and i cant believe it's a friday. like i had a party on a friday. yippie. i'm feeling very dteh. HAHA yes. i was taught how to spell dteh. GOD BLESS ME. and i wore a pink long sleeve shirt and white pants. but too bad the top's stained cos of the makeup. (O.0) i'm falling asleep. gd night.

TO TANNY( if she passes by):
so now you think you REAL ESTATE AGENT LA??!?!? wahaha. treat me to coffee la.. it's like peanuts to your pay. ;) LOVES.

2005-07-06T19:34:00.001+08:00

go paris!

since moscow's out of the IOC bid.. SIGH. :(

2005-07-06T19:34:00.000+08:00

go paris!

since moscow's already out. :(

3 pints of lager.

2005-07-06T16:50:00.000+08:00

i caught you um-smiling! ( it was adapted from um-chioing) you were um-smiling at me you bitch!! :D :D :D :D :D :D

why does the world do this to me?!?!?!

2005-07-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

the guy i am "in love" with is fucking gay! :(((( not that he cant be gay. but i like him. tsk. NEH-MIND. like he will like me like that.

submission to the vision.

2005-07-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YONEKURA KANAKO!

i'm so not into top players. day in day out they are always in the finalss. see until sian! know all their strokes. tsk..

i lied when i said i hated you. You are so nice, i feel like you are misunderstood by the other people. I wished you liked me the way i liked you.

2005-07-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

i have a disorder. i get fanatical over players and real obsessed during like the competition period. well that's cos i go and see them live and all. sigh. i love Yonekura Kanako la! i dont want her to retire yet! so wasted! I NEVER GOT TO SEE HER PLAY

2005-07-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

we are all criminals of something sinister.

declaration for independence.

2005-06-29T20:09:00.000+08:00

my dream guy would be some one like. _ _. too bad he's attached to someone too good for him.

you know, i see people "suffering" everyday well fine that's if you deem break ups suffering la. but then those people they look so poor thing and then you want to comfort and console them but then i think by doing that and telling them things they want to hear isn't going to help. i think they should like really face it la. listen to an outsider and they'd figure why it didnt work out at all. anyway they are like in secondary and school and they are like, " YOU are the only one i need." or,"YOU are the only one i ever want/wanted." or," i love YOU forever." then there's, "i love you." sadly, i think ," i love you has already long lost it's meaning." you hear people saying, " i love you" every 10minutes.

if you wish there was another door to take away your pain and regret, why didnt you open the door that lead to me? i swear i was there for you, i was willing to give in to you. you could have everything that i was able to give you, you could have abused me you could misused me, you could have taken everything out on me. i could have been your toy. i didn't mind. i really didn't.

celebration for celibation.

2005-06-28T15:34:00.000+08:00

ok. i thought of this title when i came home.

anyway i'm damn happy! anastasia myskina beat elena dementieva 1-6,7-6,7-5 last night!!! and that means lena must have treated nastya to pizza last night! hahaha! i love nastya! ANASTASIA MYSKINA ROCKS!

anyway, my maid sucks. she's a bitch. i dont fucking care. anyway, block party's such a cute band. ;) good charlotte's mysteriously hot. i'm so into guys now. hmmm. correction. into cute guys like n__ and r___ and alot more la. and that's bad. but i dont why. i think they are damn cute and i'm damn ugh to tell maryanne and ravinder that i had a crush on n__ and then they keep teasing me, but he is really cute!! oh wells. school sucks. i cant find my math book1. so DIE GWEN.

i never knew what all this meant, i never knew how one could feel this way. maybe, it's time i figured that what i had for you was NOTHING. but i dont understand how you made me feel then. even when i see you now, i still feel. though i dont want to say it i miss you. i dont know why. the smug looks you give; the smirks you show, why cant you just be normal? true enough, maybe i'm just harsh you deserve much more but you dont know.

3cents.

2005-06-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

i feel rather irresponsible and disgusted at myself, if there's any one in the world who would be angry at me, or hate me or whatsoever. it would have to be, MY RABBIT. you know, after like many months, maybe a year i finally went to like "play"with it, but now it's old and frail and has cataracts it doesnt want to play anymore. so i now i promised her, tomorrow i'm gonna clean her up and cut her nails. and i guess she's 6years old? my mus says she's gonna die soon. but it will be so sad.. :(

smile if you mean it.

2005-06-25T02:34:00.000+08:00

i have to make this comment.

MICHELLE WIE IS GROWING.
as in really growing, she's got more muscles on her legs and forearms. even the assets seems bigger. ok, that was really random.

i'm so sucked in to wimbledon. TSK.

GO NASTYA, GO DANI, GO MOMO, GO EMILIE.

dermatologists are crazy.

2005-06-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

it's official. i hate vijay amritaj and his ultra fucking bias ways of commentating. he's bias towards his own fucking country player. wait correction. he is only bias towards sania mirza. and i dont see THAT much potential in her, PERIOD.

I HATE VIJAY AMRITAJ. FUCK OFF AND DIE YOU ASSHOLE NUTCASE.

your personalize fuck buddy.

2005-06-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

i really really love you.
and all these thoughts came to my head.
and my eyes started swelling.
and i wished i never knew you.

we go back to the cycle.

it felt left.

2005-06-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

it feels so good to be near you. it feels so good to look at you. but i know. i will never have you.
i love you, but you will never know.

anyway. i've realized that i like people older than me. HAH. OH WELLS.

gimme morphine.

2005-06-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

yes. i needed morphine like 20-40 minutes ago. i had this major stomach ache. i could have died. and then i went to shit. but instead of shitting i ended up vomitting liquid. then i thought i was sick or on an empty stomach (the pain felt abit like cramps and abit like gastric) and i was like suffering in silence. the pain was unbearable. then i went downstairs. had a hot tea and pandan cake. and the pandan cake made me feel worst. so i got another glass of hot water. drank it and i felt like vomitting then i had a glass of sugarred water. and started to feel better. o.O yes, i know. i'm odd. then i held that cup walked back up, hoping that i wouldn't faint. (i was abit paranoid la!) i sat infront of the fridge on the 2nd floor and just looked for the medicine box. i went thru the whole box looking for medicines. i found panadol menstrual. but it was empty in the box. then i found this tablet for subsiding hyperactivity of gastric juices. i took 2. then i got i found charcoal. i took 1 first. then i still couldn't bear the pain took the subsiding hyperactivity of gastric juices again. i took 2 then. i didnt really feel that much better. then i found panadol extra i took 2. but still i wasn't ok. then i took the last charcoal pill. therefore i total i took 8 tablets, but all that still couldn't save me and i just lied down in front of the fridge i fell asleep. i woke up feeling like last week sunday. :D which is a good thing mind you.

cameras dont lie.

2005-06-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

i've been totally flustered by all these dreams.
somehow i think it's time i went back to thinking straight.
but hey! since when did i ever think straight?

they sold cakes for 3hundred and fifty dollars!

2005-06-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

i had this dream like 2 nights ago that makes it saturday night and the dream was like damn fantastic and i didnt know how to describe it la. but it's funny and i really really liked it and i didnt want it to end but too bad it had to come a halt cos i had training at 2.30 and i woke up at 1 HAHA. anyway it sort a went like this. this new girl joined my badminton class and she looked ultra farmilliar la and i sort of said hi. DO YOU KNOW WHO IT WAS?!?!?! GODDAMN IT! IT WAS ________. and coach made me partner her la so you must know how happy i am la! then we played alot and we got to know each other really well and we became really close and i was like partnering her ALOT. and my old partner _______ got jealous la (WTF?!) then it's like she didnt want to talk to me, which made me sad but in the end i forgot what happened. but i knew i became really close to the first person and the second person was still a friend but not as close friend that sort of thing la. my dream's damn horrible but WHAT THE FUCK. i dont care.

blame it on the universal morons.

2005-06-13T11:27:00.000+08:00

hello hello.

i'm in the mother's office. i'm "working".

PRISCILLA TAN L Q REPLIED MY FRIENDSTER MESSAGES.

dont fuck with my feelings.

2005-06-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

i dont know why i feel like that right now. maybe it's sort of the influences.
i dont believe that i like you. i can't like you. i shouldn't.

I DONT WANT TO FALL IN LOVE ANYMORE. I DONT.
I DONT WANT TO KEEP BEING TRICKED.
I DONT WANT TO THINK THAT ONE DAY, YOU WOULD LOVE ME TOO.
IT'S ALL A LIE I'VE BEEN THRU AND THRU.
I GUESS THIS IS A DAY WHEN I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
I'VE BEEN DOING ALL THIS TO MYSELF, FOR WHAT?
FUCK, NOTHING.

I'M NOT IN LOVE, IT'S JUST A PHASE THAT I'M GOING THRU.

uncertainty.

2005-06-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm really shit right now. i think p is damn pretty! i'm so ugh. maybe i like p maybe i like f i dont know la. i'm damn fucked up now. i guess it's just a passing phase, sort of crush only la. i dont really like her until i want kill myself that i kinda thing. it's so insane. and i shudder at the thought of it.

and you think i have bad taste, yes indeed i have bad taste. i dont go for the ULTRA ULTRA CHIO people ok cos i know what i deserve, the pigs at the sty. thank you.

peace out.

2005-06-08T20:20:00.000+08:00

i slept and played thru the whole day, i'm a super pig. but i like it.

you know what? jelena jankovic's hair is damn long la. hahaha

2005-06-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

Quarter-FinalMatch 4

NGO Christine & TAN L Q Priscilla {Leisure Badminton Team}

Thu 9 Jun at 12.00

CHONG Yinxi & LOE H S Kimberely {Seng Kang Secondary School}

sigh. i'm SO SAD. HOW? i've got the fucking friendly at 1.30. i can piah la. i want a new glove too! SHOOT. how?

anyway, i really think, i like _. how?

oh yes. to sort off cheer me up. and i know the whole story to how we got her photograph.

dark rings round your ankles.

2005-06-07T02:50:00.000+08:00

i'm angered by the boldness of fellow wtaworld members. how? dont know lor..
http://www.wtaworld.com/showthread.php?t=141850
it's sort of disgusting if you read everything. if i were a tennis player and i read all this(though i know it's for fun) i would be really sad.

the holidays aren't really working out for me. i really really want to go on a holiday, sit on damn plane to another fucking country. it's just that time constraints and my sister's fucking commitments dont permit. so OH WELLS. i'm not sad. i'm very. anyway, i've been wtaworlding alot compared to a few months ago. must be the holidays. haha. tomorrow there's softball training and badminton training, which to go for? if i wake up in the morning then go badminton lor. so simple. hahaha. then i'll hang around school like that lor. i've got money to get a new glove. i've got too many things on my hands. SIGH

i feel pressured, i feel different when i'm around you,
do you think it's possible?

schizoprenia

2005-06-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

hello. i've realized that i dont have money to buy a glove. i have $588 in my bank. take out $100 and i'll be left with $488. go to work? maybe. but it's so pathetic and i want to see my eyecandy play badminton. well. sort of eyecandy cos she's very pretty and nice to look at. HAHA. i had training today. and i had to play singles, like WTF. i haven't played singles since i was 2! LIAR. anyway i think i'm starting to ____, _______. HAHA. that's so random.

mummy's gonna leave for dubai. at around 3.25am. that's her flight time. how to suck $100 from her now? i want a glove. :( and it's not like coach jerry comes every 2hours. i'm such a loser. beg for her money. or withdraw? BEG.

good night ya'all. i love, _______. BULLSHIT.

cos you and i.

2005-06-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

oh hello.

today's an ok day. just that i was rather spoilt and demanded to go to paragon to see the diesel watch which in the end i didn't. i cut my hair. and now there's this thing. it's a problem. sort off. i have SOME money. and i need to decided to use it on what. to colour my hair green? which would cost $80. or buy a new glove. which would prolly set me back $150. HOW? dont know la! dying my hair would be quite stupid cos it will only be for 2weeks? the glove for years? i think i'll do my hair at the end of the year. i answer my own questions. :D

empty voices

2005-06-03T02:05:00.000+08:00

PRISCILLA TAN L Q IS DAMN PRETTY CAN!!

ok. so now i cannot condemn badminton players for their looks anymore la. haha!
anyway, i guess the prettier players are less dominant. i wonder why, she's damn pretty can! :)

why dont you show doubles?!

2005-06-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHA! FUCK SHIT. KANINA! CHAO CHEE BYE, LAN JIAO! NABEI! why dont you show doubles on the damn tv?!?! whatever la. i'm damn angry la. never show. i think gehui rocks. hmmph! and my contacts are like damn little. i want ALL my contacts back la! anyway. camp was OK only. lousy fucks. good bye.

FUCK YOU

2005-05-31T13:57:00.000+08:00

i lost my phone at SBH, guillemard road there. wait correction. it can't be lost. it should be stolen
i went to play my match and came back to my bag and my phone was gone. but my wallet was still there but i only had $20 left in my wallet. so i guess about $50 dollars was taken away. and i'm really sad/angry/frustrated/worried/unhappy/glum/disgusted.

I CHANGED MY NO. (TO THE PEOPLE WHO COME TO MY BLOG) MY NEW NUMBER IS, 81068746

hello people.

2005-05-30T19:23:00.000+08:00

Ok. I'm at camp now. My phone's battery is technically dying of already. Shit! I need fayanne now! How? Ahya. Anyway we are having a camp right now. I'm sunburnt and ultra hot. I'm really tired. Tired of it all la. Everyone's on the floor. Why is everyone so fucked up. they only care for their feelings. And not anyone elses.

the feeling cannot be denied.

2005-05-30T00:56:00.000+08:00

ok. i am like in search for my avril lavigne's under my skin and my spiderman2 soundtrack. to upload into my ipod. OOMPH. i remembered. ziping wants that song by, shoot. i forgot who! HAHAHA! let me think. -ponders- I FUCKING FORGOT! shooot. iTunes is playing sex, i am a lesbian by the butchies. that song is retarded. they have some lyricless part halfway then a drum solo. ok that song is played by a band which is a rock male band. they became sort of popular with 3 other bands at the same time. I FORGOT. it was creed and 3 doors down and one more. it's 1.05 and i've got camp tomorrow. I AM SO DEAD LA. fuck it. I AM SO ANGRY!

sheer brilliance.

2005-05-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

i really cringing at the fact that i saw really gross things. :(((

like i was watching some chinese show. it's called cloud wind if translated directly. and the aaron kwok in the show he just ripped off his left arm with his right arm because he had injured his left arm. and then he sort of flew to a lake and all the blood from that arm bled into the lake. and that this father and daughter herbist came and saved him, and the father chopped of his arm called the fire beast arm and gave it to the aaron kwok. damn sick la. alot of blood. i wanna cry.
:(

anyway. let's sum up my day.

woke up at 10
went crescent. reached at 11+
watched the match, left for primary school at 12.20pm
reached at about 12.40.
met ravinder said hi.
walked around played games ate food.
left at 2
took 171
went to heeren
reached at 2.40
walked to ziping church at 3.05
was quite fun
left the church at 5+
went to that cuppage foodcourt
left at 6.20
walked to some bus stop which took 25minutes
took 7.
met mum at clementi
went home.
bathe
ate
walked the dog.
talked to ravinder on the phone
using the computer now.

btw. my nose bled twice today. and just 2hours or less apart. SIGH.

your little hookie.

2005-05-27T13:03:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

i am at home
while people are at school, my sister decided to go to school. HOW STUPID RIGHT? my father was telling her not to go to school. wahaha. i'm happy. sort off. i shall write testimonials for people now. :D

rafael nadal MUST not win.

2005-05-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

hello.

i am still watching the french open on tv and livescoring.

i am not going to school tomorrow.

so i shall sleep late and do the french open thing! ;) update my blog. talkk about the oc like i always do. :) did i mention that i love the o.c. haha! it's like so cool! it's like the coolest show during the weekdays. or the whole of the week. i wanna watch the L world. i think shane mccutcheon/katherine moennig is damn cool.

o.c. rocked today, next episode alex is gonna kiss marrissa. :D so dying to see it! wait, it's in the 12th episode. i dont know.

school. was fun. and _ waved at me. :D

strawberries and cream

2005-05-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

oh hello little people.

today is a shit day. but it was a happy day. ok, sort of. _ smiled at me. _ talked to me after school.

not that i like lindsay davenport or whatever, GO LINDSAY! dont lose to the damn china chinese! oh god. the more i look at the play on tv, the more i feel like puking. really. it's disgusting. the china girl is damn disgusting la. and the bloody french kids are so irritating they keep screaming for god knows WHO. i think i shall stick to live scoring. i can choose what matches i want to see and what not. :p the tv is so selective. only pick the fucking top players.
even carlos moya's match is filled with bratty screaming french kids. i think french women are HAWT. haha. example, emilie loit. ;) amelie mauresmo :D hohoh. anyway. my sister wants to use the computer. i love tennis. bleah.

grrrrrrrr. SHOOT. they decided to put the china fuck back on the tv.

i'm so irritated..

oh daniela baby, please win. just 1 more game!

my father came into the rooom thinking that everyone must serve him, close the door after him. SHOOT. bang. he died.

daniela hantuchova won!! 6-4, 6-3! YAY! GO DANIELA!

physical limits.

2005-05-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

ok, so school wasn't all that great. in fact it's disgusting. i purposely left my pe t-shirt in school. i'm so nice. anyway, i'm sort of scared now. well. yes and no. at least people can boast about having good grades. while i boast about my 10/50 for social studies leaving people laughing the fuck outta themselves. sigh. what to do? NEH MIND LOR.

i went to the scgs bazaar. lousy shit lor. it was SO boring. but i saw that jillian chim suan meng person. damn disgusted lor. then i saw tania when the jilliam chim suan meng person came then i told tania, your best friend pointing towards the jillian chim suan meng. then she started spilling her beans on all the stupid things about that jcsm bitch damn shit lor, come to think of it, SHE SUCK UP TO THE SENIORS. fucking shit. too bad la. the seniors are going away. hmmmm. scgs girl's are rather hot. but snobbish. pfft. but some girls are nice. the end.

you make it seem as if 3 months is really long.
well it's not all that long, i waited for 6months and what did i get, i forgot. but i dont quite give a fuck anymore.

to gehui,
eh. dont so pessimistic la. cheer up. if there's anything i can help with tell me. i know i can't help you with your studies. but i'll try with other things. :D

you have no idea what is pain.

2005-05-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

Myskina bore a good portion of her private life on Sunday at the champion's press conference, informing the world for the first time that her mother, Galina, has been battling a serious illness, which is believed to be cancer. Myskina has known about it since January and it has clearly affected her play, as she has only reached one semi final this year.

"It's been a pretty hard time," said Myskina, who will play Spain's Maria Sanchez Lorenzo on Monday. "But I'm a professional tennis player and I have to play no matter what. I'm going to try to do my best. It's my favourite tournament, so I really want to do great here."

Myskina has also been dealing with a nagging shoulder injury, which caused her to pull out of Fed Cup and had her doubting whether she could play Roland Garros.

"Of course it's not 100 percent, she said. "You can't heal that fast. But it's getting better. I've been serving a lot and even though it gets tired. I still need to do it."

Last year, Myskina became the first Russian woman to win a Grand Slam singles title when she beat Elena Dementieva in the final.

Two weeks ago, no confidence

She ended the 2004 ranked a career high No. 3 and declared her intention of taking over the No.1 ranking. But after being stunned by Nathalie Dechy at the 2005 Australian Open, her game slid downhill. Two weeks ago in Berlin, she was shocked by German wild card Julia Schruff and said that she had absolutely no confidence in her game.

But on Sunday after getting a good workout at her beloved Roland Garros, she felt much better.

"I'll try to believe because I played such a great tournament here last year," said Myskina, who beat Kim Clijsters 6-1 in a practice set. "I'm hoping to come back here and get my confidence back. Even though today was a practice match, I was really happy that I played well and look forward to Monday."

Last week, Myskina's coach, Jens Gerlach, said his student is going to have to rediscover her inner fire at Roland Garros.

"She's been a champion and knows how to dig deep like a champion," he said. "If she gets to Paris and wins a couple of good matches, maybe she'll feel the magic of Roland Garros again."

Myskina, who took down Venus in last year's quarterfinals, could play her US foe again in the fourth round. Like her coach, she's hoping to rekindle her fire.

i am so sorry for her.

frontiers.

2005-05-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

oh hello again.

FUCK THE WORLD! I AM SO ANGRY!! NO!!!!!!! HOW CAN MY BELOVED ANASTASIA MYSKINA LOSE TO SOME FUCKING MARIA SANCHEZ LORENZO. OH FUCK. SEEMS LIKE THE WORLD IS NOT ON HER SIDE?!! WHAT DID SHE FUCKING DO YOU HUH?! WORLD! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU! DONT LIKE HER TELL HER IN HER FACE, FUCK YOU! MAKE HER LOSE THE FRENCH OPEN IN THE FUCKING FIRST ROUND?!?!?!? HUH?!?!?!?! KANINAMA CHAO CHEE BYE, NABEI! WHAT THE FUCK. BAISER!

SHOOT. I'M SO ANGRY. HUH?!?! HUH?!?! URGHH! I'VE NO MOOD TO DO ANY FUCKING THING NOW. GRRRRRRRR!

but neh-mind la, when i wake up in the morning i'm all back to normal.

anyone SLEEPOVER CLUBBING? ;D

FUCK THE SMITHS.

2005-05-23T19:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO

i happily missed my favourite show in the entire world! do you know what does that mean?! i have to wake up at 2.30am to catch it! but, i always do that, oh wells. ;) i'm going melbourne so i guess i'll be able to like get the dvd or something. ;) i'm so sleepoverclub crazy. anyway tomorrow i'll miss 3.30pm one as well cos i'll be going to the scgs bazaar. :D did i mention i am using my mother's laptop. mummy since you dont use it, can you give it to me? can la. just like your golf set? CAN LA! :D shoot. i'm so bad to my mummy. nevermind la i'm so horrible.

anyway had some jumble sale at my estate and we were selling food, toys, kitchen wear, fashion accesorries. ravinder and maryanne came over. and mel and fangzi. ra and ma bought 4 rings. yeah. i think they are happy. :D then they came to my house and we played, talked, bitch, exchange juicy gossip. amelia told me something hmmm... interesting about that person and, i'm feeling sorry for all the things i said. anyway the whole day was fun. :D

to that person,
i'm sorry. i dont hate you, i wouldn't it's just that i'm sort of confused right now and all my posts are just like a cover. i just dont want to face up to the truth. i love you, but i hate you. i'm sorry.

to miss _______,
if i gave you a piece of apple strudel will you forgive me? i know it's really lame but would you? please? i beg of you.

russian brutality.

2005-05-22T18:48:00.000+08:00

hoho!

today's training was SMASHING! literally. i was jump smashing and everything. it's like i never played like that before. stacy and michelle are so passe. HAHA. shoot. i'm so over confident. hmmm. ok. i'm sort of confident for cheers now. :D hhaha. but it kind off clashes with my schedule. cos i'll be playing at 11.20am on 31st. and i'll be in camp on 31st. HOW?! haha i'll find a way. anyway i sent my racquets for restringing. :D my mother's gonna pay oh yes. i picked up $50 when i was walking. :D i am filthy rich baby. filthy rich! call me.

bye hookers!

separation.

2005-05-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

i want women's weekly.
i want felicia chin.
i want that skirt. :(

ok. the skirt was a joke. but it's hell nice!! :( it's really nice, it's from zara. oh yes. did i mention how much i hate zara? it seems like women's fashion has been limited to, zara, topshop and mango.. ESPECIALLY THE FRUIT. hmmm. luckily men's fashion has a whole array of brands. anyway, i want a jacket. then i can wear to formal dinners wearing a t-shirt inside with jeans. HAHA! i think my mum will kill me. but, i dont give a fuck. my dad's cool. he bought this ultra cool leather cuff from perth. it's holey moley thick. but it's nice. my dad takes things to literal. i told him i wanted a quiksilver leather cuff called thorns and roses. and he thought it would be like, spikes around it and he was like, that's so out of fashion i am not going to buy it. so yes. thank you very much daddy. but i'm going to melbourne (so my mother says) then i can go spend lots of her money. SPEND SPEND SPEND! can you hear the cash register go, KA-CHING, KA-CHING, KA-CHING. hahaha! i am so hilarious c'mon people laugh at me. anyway. i've gotta change. i'm going for training. I MISSED FAYANNE. she went to obs. i think she'll start telling me stories like those germaine told me. HAHA

BYE FUCKERS!

i am just about to break down.

2005-05-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

TAN Yann Yee & TIONG J X Winnie
Tue 31 May at 11.20
FOO Fayanne & WEE Gwendolyn {Warren Country Club}

oh fuck it. i was SO excited about it like 6hours ago? and i am now i'm like crap scared. it's only 10 more days. i'm gonna cry. :( shoot. and it's like halfway thru the softball camp! HOW?! dont know la. i'm very scared. at this very point i dont feel like playing anymore. HOW?! i am so wimpy and wussy and cowardy. i thinK they winnie person play before. the name is very farmiliar.

FAYANNE! i am damn scared to play now! how? why couldn't we have gotten a bye eh?! how! i'm so traumatized right now.

ahya. fuck la. anyway i came home at 1am. i went to watch stars wars and i seriously think that it should have an nc16 or m18 rating. it's so gory.

anyway THE SLEEPOVER CLUB IS STARTING NOW.

BYE!

your royal highness.

2005-05-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

my mother's laptop is so cool! hahaha. it's like 13 inches wide, long or whatever. it's ultra tiny. but i like it. well sort off. i want an ibook! I WANT I WANT I WANT! i'm so spoilt. WHATEVER. hahaha. i want an IBOOK. please. anyone. even a $10 donation would do. i'm scrimping and saving. trying to get some money out of my parents. so i can buy my $1350 ibook. :D I WANT AN IBOOK. I WANT.I NEED. I DEMAND. so that i'll stop cramping up the desktop. sigh. the things i have there. I WANT IBOOK. PLEASE! OR ANY OTHER LAPTOP. hahaha. ahya. budget one also can la. buy not so cheap. i need a laptop. :(

I LOVE THE SLEEPOVER CLUB. :D

your infidelities.

2005-05-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

have you no shame?!

hoho. this morning i swear i worst the meanest person in the world to joanne. I didn't quite get what got over me. but i was mean to her, i didn't let her have my water and i just shouted into her face. sigh. bad to the bone.

anyway. sleepover club ended approximately 15minutes ago. I LOVE THAT SHOW! : )))
it's like so cool. and i am coming home to watch it tomorrow. :) i'll come home first, watch tv then go back to school. : )) GREAT IDEA GWEN! but sasha and zhiyi thinks that i should stay for training. BUT NO! i want to watch the sleepover club!! SLEEPOVER CLUB!!! hahaha.

today's sleepover club was rather odd. especially todays. it was like, kenny and rosie were attracted to guys it's normal but frankie lyndz and fliss were like so against them going out with "dumb" guys. but in the end they went out and frankie and lyndz and fliss were sort of angry. and they were like, you rather go out with "stupid" boys then hang out with the S.O.C. as in sleepover club. and frankie and lyndz kept going about how they couldn't go out with guys. it sounded like a lesbianic sleepover club. :
just my 2cents. but yeah. i still think lyndz and frankie's hot. and frankie looks really tall right? but she's just 157cm. and lyndz is that tall too. but she's older than frankie by a year, which makes her the same age as me. her birthday was on labour day.

I LOVE THE SLEEPOVER CLUB! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

face it.

2005-05-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

hokay!

about yesterday's post. it was random. very random, but it was my thoughts at that very moment. i was blogging with my phone.

fine. i admit i am not flawless as well. i've done so much wrong, no amount of atonment of sin would EVER help. but whatever it is bitch, i know i have flaws. but you have way more. and you know very well what you did. so stop being that bitch you are. (if you think this is you, IT'S YOU.)

you,(if you think this is you, IT'S YOU.) didn't you know that you were my hero? you were everything i wanted to be. you still are what i want to be up till now. DONT YOU KNOW?!

sleepover club is the best show ever. YES!
BASIA A'HERN ROCKS!
CAITLIN STASEY ROCKS!

BASIA ROCKS!! :D

oh yes. i had an odd dream last night about the softballers and a bus and 3c (???!!!!) and the bus was like, ULTRA long. haha! and we were playing softball in the bus and saying bye to people who got off the bus. ok it was a crazy dream. but, HELL I AM CRAZY!

On gay hiatus.

2005-05-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

this is my heart, bleeding before you; this is me, down on my knees.
ok i'm murdering myself with all this slow sad songs now. And really. It's so, painful. I guess i destroyed my own mood to actually study geography. I think i'm really tired. Tired of every damn thing.
You are always in demand, but sadly when i needed you then you were never there. And everyday i cried dreaming me you. And what i did, Why did you ignore me? You were like the only person i wanted to talk to for that whole period. But where had you gone? You're my inspiration. My god. I worship you. Ok whatever its not like you care. And if you thing this whoever you think it is, it is whoever you think it is la.
whatever. Now i keep thinking about the butchies and how their songs really reflect On my life. And not i'm so full of regret. Gwendolyn Wee, how are you ever gonna enjoy life. This is it, i'm now the straight active/butch, i like guys. But i dont dig the long hair and skimpy tops and short skirts. Goodbye, love your one and only straight active/butch.

unforgiven.

2005-05-17T15:21:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE SO UNFORGIVEN. wait. wasn't it you who forgave me for no apparent reason. WHATEVER. i dont think i need nor want your forgiveness. wait. that's so random. WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT?! no, i guess it's cos I NEED THE SLEEPOVER CLUB NOW!

SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB SLEEPOVER CLUB PLEASE.

anyway. f&n paper was ok. supposedly going steamboat with maria tomorrow. dont know if she still intends to go la. or maybe i'm going with my mum to eat RUSSIAN FOOD! haha! i'm such a foodie!

SLEEPOVER CLUB PLEASE!

9minutes more!

follow up.

2005-05-16T15:25:00.000+08:00

ok just posted less than 5minutes ago.
and sba site says, Due to overwhelming responses, the draws and schedule for the Cheers Badminton Age Group will be out by 20 May 2005.

what bullshit?! i cannot take it anymore. i'm very excited! i'm partnering fayanne ok! hopefully we can reach the 2nd round! :)

SUPERMAN.

2005-05-16T14:46:00.000+08:00

hello.

russell peter is a fucking funny asshole. and i want to watch sleepover club now.

and i totally screwed accounts up. i studied last night. and when i went to sit for the paper. i blacked out. I FORGOT EVERY FUCKING THING. :(

after the paper me and joanne went to look for miss seah. and i kinda realize i was really whiney and spoilt and everything. ughh. yeahh miss seah's like really nice! she taught me and joanne geography. and we sat at the bench outside the staff room. but i sat on the floor haha. miss seah's really cool! no, mrs. Lok! no, MADAM SEAH. hahaha! poor miss seah she's sick. and she still comes to school. and i guess her favourite colour is also purple. she and the purple cardigan. haha! yes. and when i sat on the floor i observed her toes and legs. (?!)

sigh. i miss fayanne. WHY MUST SHE GO TO OBS?!?!?! i hope she doesn't die there. HAHA! ahya. she's so horrible. come back soon la!

i need to checkout the sba website to see the cheers draws. :)

bye.

intentions exposed.

2005-05-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

YO WASSUP!

haha. i'm so sleepy but i'm so engergized. my eyes are heavy but my body's like dancing.(?!!)

anyway, there's sudirman cup on tv again. and i'm watching it again instead of studying accounts. and my sister says, tomorrow instead of doing accounts i'll be writing players names, scores, stroke and whatever else. HAHA. so funny, not. ANYWAY. i think fransisca ratnasari's very cute!! she's 18. and she looks like a 15 or 16 year old. maybe it's cos she's skinny. she lost to ugly old zhang ning in the first set, 11-1. and now it's the second set the score is 5-3, ugly old zhang ning is winning. i was fransisca to win! and fransisca's giving the old hag a run for her money. why dont zhang ning just sprain her ankle and retire or something. she looks absolutely plastic. i think fransisca's way cool! she's like doing whatever the ugly old hag did to her. and fransisca's fitness is not that good. prolly she's got to work on there before she kick the old hag's butt. GO FRANSISCA! I'M SO SUPPORTING YOU. now the score is 5-5. : ))

bye people who dont know fransisca!

superficiality.

2005-05-14T14:39:00.000+08:00

oh dear okay gwendolyn what trash are you writing on your blog. aye im not perfect, i cant be your idol, i am not smart dont be crazy okie anyway i just wanted to tell you that everything would be all right seriously ahh anyway those people are bullshitters, the more you listen to them, the more you'll get affected

shoot. haha! how did she find out?
she's like really cool! she's like perfect. she's ultra pro at badminton, she's really pretty, she's got a nice figure(?!) she has like ten thousand admirers of like both gender or something. and she's like ultra smart. got into some good class and she says her class all the china scholars or whatever. and i think i had a dream a long time ago about her getting like 6points for the Os.
shoot.

i don't care! germaine tan shi min is my idol! whether she likes it or not.

i think i sound like a small brat.

anyway, i'm supposed to do my accounts and bio. i've prepared everything ready to study, but the moment i hold the pen i'm like. can i do it later. shit right? how to revise?!?! take it as i've flunked combined humans, combined science and math. bye.

i suppose you want me dead?

2005-05-13T22:00:00.001+08:00

i just watched finished the sudirman cup. the quarterfinals. japan lost to malaysia. 1-3. SIGH. eriko hirose should be very proud of herself for being the only one who won. -points to the 1 point. and i think tadashi ohtsuka is very very cute. he's so hmmm.. pretty. he's a pretty boy. : ))) but he's very cute. eriko hirose looks like rosalind pho. : )) i think japan rocks. anyway i went out to town. was the ultra loser that i always am. i got chased home. how sad. yeah anyway i town saw the rgs softballer, the one who drinks ALOT of milk. and the genevieve. haha. they remembered me! they were like, "stc 1st base right?" haha. oh yes. i saw shiyun and rachel goh. i think rachel goh's glasses are really cool! it's like, 3/4 frame (??) i am so going to study, TOMORROW. HAHA. and i shall surf wtaworld. NOW.

bye un-pretty people!

semi circles.

2005-05-13T11:05:00.000+08:00

Oh yes. Blogging with my phone again. It's just so fun. I can't take it anymore. WAHAHA. I'm sitting at long john at far east. I'm so bored. I'm writing my letter. And they are gonna cut hair soon. Oh hurry up. I feel so detested. I jus realized my hand has 5 holes. Sheesh.

megawatt smiles.

2005-05-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hello all again. I'm blogging for the 3rd on this lousy thursday. Though there was oc. I didn't really cheer the shit out of me. there were like ten billion sad scenes, crying scenes, touching scenes where everything makes your eyes teary. Yeah. There was like plentiful of that. Anyway. I am chapter 4 studying for chemistry, i have 3 more chapters to go, but i want to sleep. How? Sleep la. Study for what, sure fail what. goodbye losers who still uses the computer to blog. ;)

supposedly

2005-05-12T20:54:00.000+08:00

oh yay. i'm so hated. YAY!

EVERYONE HATE ME PLEASE.
I AM BACKSTABBER.
I AM 2 FACED.
I AM A DESPO
I HAVE NO FRIENDS.
I AM A CREEP.
I AM A JERK
I AM LOUSY
I AM STUPID
I AM IN NORMAL
I CUT MYSELF COS I FEEL LIKE
i meant I CUT COS I WANT ATTENTION
I NEED ATTENTION OR I'LL BE SO BORED.
I ACT CUTE
I ACT TOUGH
I AM POSER.
I AM A FIRST CLASS ACTOR.

IN SHORT, I'M JUST PLAIN FUCKING BAD AND I DONT DESERVE FRIENDS.

oh yes. i forgot. i dont have to ask people to hate. they all hate me already. yay! i'm so hated. c'mon start an anti gwen friendster. let the whole world know what kind of a bad person i am.

2005-05-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

everyone's changing.
everyone's going on
but i am still left back here.

haha. whatever. that was nonsense. i am suppose to study chemistry and the lousy ionic bonds. but i can't. so i wont.

bye.

On hiatus

2005-05-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

Hello all. i'm blogging with my phone. And it's quite. Hard. And i'm supposed to be doing my math cos i have my paper tomorrow. But i just can think of math. My mind's always drifting off to something else. Other thoughts nothing to do with math or passing the midyears for that matter. WAHAHA. I crack my own jokes. Anyway. Some people should be murdered. Including me. How they do it. I don't know. But make it quick and painless. Oh yes. 200mg of prozac should do the trick. Anyway. i think i should get off the internet on my phone. The bill's gonna blow. Out losers!

2005-05-11T12:40:00.000+08:00

yay.

i'm everyone's 2faced bitchy ugly smelly fat disgusting talkative bestfriend.

ahya. heck care la. i also dont care about you. hate me then hate me la. I FUCKING GIVE A SHIT OK.

dont you know. i always have to act in front of you. must be sympathetic huh. must be angry. must be against somebody. then when you're not there right i'll be so happy. oh yeah. i like be happy. i'll be sad when you are there. ah shoot.

anyway. social studies today. if i can get 3marks i'll be so happy. and when mrs charoo was collecting my paper she asked me, you dont write much do you? then i just look at her.

danny fired 3 shots in the air.

2005-05-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

i have too much in my mind. i can't study for ss. wait. i've never studied for ss. sheesh. i was aiming for a 10/25. seems like i wont even hit the 3 point mark. HAHA. but on a note of seriousness. that 10% of functionality in my brain(in everyone elses) has like 9.9999999% taken up by absolutely random, hilarious, obsolete thoughts. i have a pounding headache. Mr. taking back sunday makes me want to cry. Mr. Taking back sunday's voice is sexy. but oh wells. sheesh. really i am not concentrating on my work. i'm really screwed and math tutor he's just here to make money and come at he's convenience. shoot. i'm still pmsing(post menstrual syndrome) i am really having this pounding headache. i am not thinking straight. i am not thinking at all.

i hate _______ too.
she thinks i dont know, BUT I KNOW.
_________ is being rather, hmmm... friendly these days. I WONDER WHY.
maybe it's cos _______ is psychoing _________. or maybe it's just cos _________'s birthday is coming up. whatever.

-
i know i am an ugly shit. and i am an eyesore to you.
or maybe it's just my attitude towards you. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
i kept my promise and i kept that message from you. it was dated 27/3/05. I STILL KEEP IT.
maybe i'm just plain bitchy. whatever la. i really have no idea what i am saying but i am just upset. i hope you pass your exams with drowning colours.

i wish i had a bestfriend where i could trust. i wish i had someone to tell/pour everything out to. i wish i has a bestfriend where i could just tell her everything and she would understand. well, i guess germaine's right, "i have no bestfriend, the world has too many faces."

i need some love.

2005-05-09T19:39:00.001+08:00

my beautiful random person and someone.

so pretty. i saw her filing her work. and i saw her sitting with her legs wide open. ;P

haha! i am so pervertic. anyway school was shitty. i fell asleep during english. and i was made to stand then while i was standing i fell asleep again. and everyone laughed at me. sheesh. what must a person do to get some rest. hoho. i love gullermo coria. he's so cute! he's my boyfriend! : ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) yay!

fayanne rocks! : )))

2005-05-09T19:39:00.000+08:00

she's the hell pretty one.

2005-05-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

i miss you alot.
i wonder where you are.
i wonder what you are doing.

i dream about you all the time.
i just cant get you out of my head.

2005-05-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

i saw my handsome. wahaha! so handsome. mr. guillermo coria. i've been in love with him since. since. a long time ago la. i've got fucking stomach ache.grrrr going for badminton now. BYE.

2005-05-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

MARYANNE SOH XIAO YU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY. WELL YOU'RE ALREADY 15. PLEASE ACT 15 LA! HAHA! I LOVE YOU OK! DONT LEAVE ME OK! HAHAHA! : ))))))) MUCH LOVES! : )))))))

my idol talked to me today. sort off. she's so comforting. i think she's like the nicest person and coolest person and like. everything! she's like fucking perfect. sheesh. if only were like her. she's ultra smart also. anyway i wasted the day doing NOTHING. well. i read books. walked the dog. alot of times. and all. haha! but i guess i wasted most of my time waiting for my idol to reply. haha.

to my pretty friend. dont be so depressed la. it's only yang. haha you're like obsessed over him la wahaha!. nevermind pretty friend. we have each other. haha! : ))) much love to my pretty friend.

You, doing that thing you do
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you, dont mean to be cruel
You never even knew about the heartache
I've been going through
Well I'm trying trying to forget you girl
But it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that
You'll be mine someday
Cause we, we'd be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me
Cause I'm trying trying to forget you girl

but it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl
But I know one thing's for sure
It's your love I haven't got girl
And I just can't take it anymore

Cause we, we'd be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you
And keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
And if I know you you're doing that thing
Every day just doing that thing
I can't take you doing that thing you do

i dont believe anyone
feels the same way i do about you know.

danny had to walk in with a gun

2005-05-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

so you think the whole world revolves you.
so you think that she's all interested in you.
so you think she would never check?
go to hell.
so you think everyone is very interested in you?!
so you think everyone want's to know what goes on in you life?
Karen Tan. so what if i tell people you are playing in cheers. you are anyway.
my idol's gonna find out anyway. they are gonna publish it. and after they publish it i'm gonna scream to the whole world you are playing. not happy. too bad.

shooot. i think i am really in a bad mood. i'm like pmsing. as in post menstral syndrome.
everyday's so fucked up. i guess the exams fuck people up. or maybe it's just my stinking attitude to life. but i dont know if anyone gives a fucking damn. hoho.
let's just take matchsticks. light it, then blow it out and press it against our flesh and feel the pain. and then your skin starts to bubble and you get a fucking blister. that was so fucking random.

oh wahooo! look just who came to cheer me. nobody! you fucking ass. i am so fucking irritated. maybe a nice game of fucking wiffle ball can fucking cheer me up.

my fucking day was so fucking ruined by zenn eng yu qi. i am so 2 faced. that's right. i am 2 faced. at least i am better than you. fucking 4 face. go throw yourself at some shaun ong whatever. maybe if he doesn't love you or like you the way you do. you can go shave your head go bald. be a mun(monk+nun) everyone is tired of your nonsense. i'm serious. dead serious. i thought you were nice. i thought i could talk to you. i trusted you. i believed you. YOU FUCKING LIED. AND I WAS SO FUCKING BLIND AND FUCKING NAIVE TO HAVE TRUSTED YOU. THANK GOD YOU NOW HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS IN SCHOOL EXCEPT FOR YOUR SQUIRMY ACCQUAINTANCES THAT YOU ARE GETTING TO KNOW AND THEY DO THE SAME THING TO THEM.

anyway the fucking day was so fucking terrible. in the morning i saw sad scenes. sad glimpses. really i take pity on this person. though she's done so much and someone claims that she deserves alll she's getting right now. well... you can always say it's biasness. but who the fuck am i to judge.

today. i shall just go jump off the building.or from my classroom. it's just the second floor. i wont die. i wouldn't i couldn't anyway. i really have NO idea why i am so angry. maybe it's sidney sheldon. maybe it's the way i speak. maybe it's the way i am so uneducated compared to the people in my class. maybe. i'm just inferior to all my surroundings.

whatever. i am the strawberry girl, and i deserve more than just strawberries and cream. i deserve much more than that. and the fucking world just ain't ready for me. the strawberry girl.

2005-05-05T15:05:00.000+08:00

i am so screwed right now. i was so generous just now and i gave away $300(actually it's30marks) i gave it to random people in the school. hoho! i hate chinese. and clb. chinese is really damn fucking easy. they have so much time that they can draw a bloody pony and sophistcated potrait of themself on the cover of the bloody question paper. RIGHT RAVINDER KAUR?! HOR MARYANNE SOH?! fuck. i have no idea what triggered the anger in me. maybe it's the fact that i just decided to throw away my future in chinese. or maybe it's THAT letter. oh wells. maybe it's THAT person. oh wells. she's so funny anyway. she loves everybody. anybody who's ultra manly with lotsa of leg hair. chest hair armpit hair oh yes. and manly person with hair all they way at the butt. oomph fuck. it seems like i'm jealous. YES I AM SO JEALOUS THAT I DONT GET AS MUCH UNWANTED ATTENTION JUST LIKE YOU.
hoho. i'm going to have math tuition at 4. which is another 35minutes from now.

i'm so funny. i crack my own jokes. and i crack myself up. and i am so pretty and all. damn, i am the strawberry girl.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseach you
Simple things, that make you run a-way
Catch you if I can.

2005-05-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

last night before i went to bed, i thought about the things i've done. and somehow, i thought that some of the things i've done were wrong. and there were the things that i've done right.

the things that i've done wrong. too bad. cos i've done it and it's there already. nothing's going change the fact of its existence. but then i also thought, why did i do the wrong thing. i asked myself over and over. it was not cos i was hurting inside. it was not that i was dying for your attention either. when it happened; it happened. that sort of made me figure out why.

then there's the good. the good thing was to save. your BLOODY ASS. i wanted to leave it alone but i knew it wouldn't be very nice if you found out about something like that, and i didnt want to see you hurt. and yes. i went to do it. and i did save your BLOODY ASS. and now that i've done it. i feel that i'm not appreciated. and i start thinking and asking myself why i did it what good would come out from it; it doesn't matter much. iloveyou. maybe i should have just left it there.

Two days chasing me around
I go crazy when you're outside of my world

I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone.
I feel the same thing always happens when you're gone
And i know you're just around the corner
But just around the corner is not enough
It's not enough

-

Open up to me
Like you do your girlfriends
And you sing to me
And it's harmony
Girl what you do to me is everything
Let me say anything just to get you back again
Why can't we just try?

it's a yes or a no.
yes will leave me wanting for more
no and i guess i'll just have to live with. HEH.

2005-05-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

i am so overjoyed that my idol is like, willing to talk to me. well. more willing than a month ago or something. i miss my idol very very much. i almost wrote the sa compo on my idol. the question was, write about the person who has made the greatest impact on your life. i almost wrote about my idol! but then if i wrote it, i will seem like i'm some fucking desperate shit. haha

the papers were ok, i guess. i know i screwed the letter. i was just writing to fill the paper up. it looked so stupid it sounded stupid. like some 3year old kid wrote it. hoho. what to do. i am a 3year old kid.
i screwed up the whole thing except for paper2. and i heard sandy's grandma passed on. i am really sad for her. she's still so strong. sigh. she found out after paper1.

SANDY. I'M REALLY SORRY FOR YOU, NO AMOUNT OF WORDS THAT I'M GONNA SAY. IT'S GONNA MAKE UP FOR THE LOSS YOU HAD. BUT PLEASE. REMEMBER. YOU ALWAYS HAVE A FRIEND IN ME. be strong ok.

i miss you.

2005-05-02T16:35:00.000+08:00

I AM SO ANGRY.
THERE'S THIS ANTI SOMEBODY ON FRIENDSTER. AND I AM SO ANGRY.
ANGRY. DONT LIKE THE PERSON TELL THE PERSON STRAIGHT IN THE FACE LA.
DO ALL THESE KINDA THINGS. I START AN ANTI-YOU ACCOUNT FOR YOU AS WELL LA. SEE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT. FUCKED UP ASSHOLES. NEITHER ONE OF YOU ARE GOOD-LOOKING NOR PRETTY STILL COMPARE WITH PEOPLE.
I HOPE YOU ALL DIE A TERRIBLE TERRIBLE DEATH

I AM SO ANGRY!

shoot la. anyway. i was so pms-y today. i was pms-ing from 12.15- to almost 1.30.
and during that period of time i was whining. groaning. moaning. crying. salivating and sceaming.

whatever. i am so angry. should have used the computer at that bloody time.

GERMAINE WAS TALKING TO ME. shit. HOHO!

2005-05-02T02:07:00.000+08:00

Ivana's so hot.

my sister's fucking irritating.

it's 2.15am

&

THE EASTON GLOVES ARE SO COOL! :))

HAHA

goodBYE.

oh smile at me.

2005-05-01T14:47:00.000+08:00

ok i haven't been online for the 3 days? yes. how sad. my sister made the computer conk out.

friday.
i went to turf city went to watch softball. very interesting. stephanie budiman and chritabel is funny. haha! we all shared cab. but not stephanie. oh yes. saw kenny. : )) i saw him twice already! maryanne; 0. hhoho! she's so jealous!

saturday.
went towning with my mother! hoho! she bought perfume. i didn't buy anything. and i went to walk my dog. and i saw her. hoho! she's so pretty ok! : )))))))) ok whatever. shit.

anyway today there's no training. it's so boring. sighh. i'm tired. and i'll be having my english paper on tuesday. excited? YES DAMMMIT. ahha. i'm so fucked up.

goodbye.

I'm taking my time
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine
As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind

I wanna feel the way you make me feel
When I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand
You need to hold on to
But every time I call
You don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine

You're nothing at all
I know there's a million reasons why I shouldn't call
With nothing to say
Could easily make this conversation last all day

I wanna feel the way you make me feel
When I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand
You need to hold on to
But every time I call
You don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine

Another lesson I didn't get to learn
You're my obsession
I've got nowhere to turn

I wanna be the one you hold on to

2005-04-27T19:23:00.000+08:00

if i said i don't love you anymore; i'll be lying.
if i said i hated you to the core; i'll be lying even more.

oh god. ahaha. i dont what was that. bullshit. i am so bored. SO BORED TILL I AM ACTUALLY DOWNLOADING SONGS FOR REGINE. wahaha. anyway, i just thought of weixuan and gwen goh. haha! i feel so retarded. that time she saw me at warren, i was just leaning at the pillar and she was staring at me. I SWEAR. she was staring at me as if milk was leaking from my boobs. hoho!

anyway, i left my phone in school

EVERYONE! TELL ME I AM SMART!
I AM SO DUH-rific! hohoho!

i am still so infatuated by you.
all the messages i still keep.
ahh fuck it.
you'll never be mine.

can you put me back?

2005-04-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

i've been really sensitive these few days and the words you use, the things you do it all affects me.

Can i be back up there where i used to be?

i'll promise you to be the best person there ever could be.

i tried and tried again. And everytime you go against me, and now you do this to me.

can't you see; i am scarred.

i am so honoured to be able to play in cheers with fayanne anyway. stupid karen tan and lai meiyi. dont friend you all anymore la. fayanne's my new bestfriend. cos she's willing to play cheers with me. PIGS.

i wanna do the do with you.

2005-04-25T17:17:00.000+08:00

i was at www.singaporebadminton.org.sg got the cheers form. sent into coach. just waiting for fayanne to send in. I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE WOULD PLAY WITH AN IDIOT LIKE ME. OH MY GOSH OK! haha.

i think i am too free. going in search of all these random people's photos.but i know some. and some know me. so it's ok. i guess.

anyway i hate maryanne because i swear her msn display name is referring to me. and i know it. oh yes. i got my shoes changed. haha

johnny may never smile again.

2005-04-24T13:46:00.000+08:00

I still believe in those lyrics.

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love

But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again.

i think this should now be the end.
(21.3.05 - 24.4.05)

it's all in the mind.

2005-04-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

this morning, i woke up.

i said to myself, today i am gonna forget you. I am going to forget that i onced loved you. From then on my mind was set, i was all fresh. at first i thought i was all fresh. as time passed by thoughts of you were revived, though whenever they came i brushed them aside. BECAUSE I TOLD MYSELF I DONT NEED YOU ANYMORE. but sadly. as time went by i didnt "forget" you. i just kept thinking of you, about the things you said, never said and what i want you to say. I was just daydreaming of you for the whole day. and now. i sit here i think of you.

i spent like tens of thousands of dollars today, i bought a pair of shoes.a perfume. shorts and a pair of socks. so yes. i spent lots and lots of money today. but luckily it wasn't my money. my new shoes rock ok. but the laces are rather long. i bought a burberry perfume. my sister bought the DKNY BE DELICIOUS perfume. IT'S DAMN NICE OK!! SMELLS LIKE A BLOODY GREEN APPLE. I ALMOST STOLE THE TESTER. heheh! but my sis bought a bottle so it didn't really matter. my sister's like bragging about how she got it and all. grr. how irritating. and she's getting on my nerves. and the woman at dfs was really nice, she gave me free samples cos my mum said that i come here to buy perfume all the time. so yeahh. anyway i saw 2 of our school girls there and they were wearing like 10000dollars worth of makeup on their face. how scary eh? haha!

the people at pacific plaza were like, really trendy and all. it made me feel. small. HAHA.

anyway. i think this girl who was from my primary school turned bung. she has some odd bung name like kerzon. HEH.

anyway. i am happy. bye

--TIFFANY PERFECT.
I LIKE WENT SHOPPING TODAY AND LIKE. SO LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE TODAY COS I WENT SHOPPING AND LIKE EVERYTHING.... I LIKE BOUGHT REALLY NICE SUEDE SHOES. AND LIKE REALLY CUTE GREEN SOCKS. ALL THAT? AND I BOUGHT REALLY SHORT FBT SHORTS WHICH ARE LIKE, SOOOOOOO SEXY ON ME. AND I GOT A REALLY SEXY BOTTLE OF PERFUME. IT'S THE BURBERRY BRIT. AND I FEEL SEXY WEARING IT AND ALL. ANYWAY. MISS TIFFANY PERFECT'S GOTTA GO. MAMA PERFECT WANT'S ME TO STUDY. OH WELLS. HAHA.

GOOD NIGHT ALL YOU NOT SO PERFECT PEOPLE.!

2005-04-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

today there's 10 more.
total count now stands at... 41.

i went to run after i came home. yay!
i ran 4km. i swear! yay!

ok, i went to kap after school and we sat there and talked. talked the afternoon away. and at 5.30pm we were talking about a someone, and how she was having training. but then i forgot that today was friday and she would be near kap. and we were talking about her for quite some time. then, BAM! without warning, maryanne and ravinder went home and saw her onto bus. i was frantic cos i wanted to see her more than anyone at that point of time. she was really all that there was in mind at that time. maybe jealousy kicked in when they saw her and i didnt, therefore in my mind. i was in a rage. ok that was nonsense.

anyway went home. i was in the bus alone. by myself. with tens of thousands of other commuters. i got home and all i wanted to do was to runaway. 3lines down the wrist came first. i ran. i ran. i ran. i ran till i couldn't take it no more. i came back. another 7lines down. OH GOD. WHATEVER GWEN. and now i am here. i tired.

to the girl in the yellow shirt:
i've succumbed to temptations, you make it sound so easy but it's not to me however i try. it's really hard; i don't understand why. Would you help me?

to the girl in the red shirt:
it didn't happen just with a snap of the finger. It didn't happen because of sympathy.
whatever. anyway because you dont care i'll just tell you. all 41 of them are because of you. if you want 70 to match your code. i'll do it. you don't understand how i feel. you never will cos you dont care. It's not about "love" or whatever. i also dont know. all this mixed feelings has gotten to my head. i'm not even thinking right. i am not saying things right.

i love you, but i don't know who are.
i guess i'll just have to let you go.

regret? yeah. i regretted too much that i cant count, regretting 1 more time wouldn't kill now, would it?

When everything you'll get is everything that you've wanted, princess
well which would you prefer
My finger on the trigger, or Me face down, down across your floor
Well just so long as this thing's loaded

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

If I could be like that, I would Give anything.

but there's still tomorrow
forget the sorrow.

In my head there's only you now

2005-04-21T19:41:00.000+08:00

i had fun all day in school hurraay!
i ponned softball hurray!

gahh.

today i school was fun la. we just played around though them fucked up mid years are like coming already... and i was supposed to go for training until i sort of found out NOBODY was going then lucky small gwen ask me outt. heh! if not i'll be some idiot going for training with the sec1s. haha. anyway, ziping, nicole and me went to small gwen's house we watched doll master. hahaha. and thru out the trip there we were like, miss quek is going to be so angry tomorrow. and then we hi-fived in the mrt. ahya. now i feel bad ok. : ((

And no matter how hard I try,
I can't escape these things inside

2005-04-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

today, there are 16more.

i went to town. YAY!
i bought a new wallet YAY!
i am doing my work YAY!

heh. from today onwards. i shall always put this yay thing to make me happy. sort off. haha!

anyway i am having a fucking stomache ache. oh yes. my legs are were all fucking aching. the thighs the calves. the groin as well. ( ?!)

i got my wallet. it's so nice. and ziping's got the mini wallet. and so she's gonna get the same wallet tomorrow. but the black one. so i'll have her mini wallet. haha. so adorable. we were going crazy over the mini wallet onthe cab back. heh!

we were talking about the most private issues in the cab. and even happy people do mutilate themselves.

you don't have to call.

let's just do this ONE more time.

2005-04-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

jamie yeo and carrie chong came to MY SCHOOL. HURRAY!
i hope jamie and carrie remember me! HURRAY!
I PASSED MY 2.4! HURRAY HURRAY HURRAY!!!

haha. this is so retareded. anyway. my whole body's aching like fuck. ok fine the legs only.

as of today, i no longer have the mind to think of words to make you love me.
as of today, i am emotionally scarred; physically scarred as well.
as of today, i promise to not give up on you till the time comes.

you dont know why i do what i do to myself. you don't see all the contradiction i see.
you dont know what i use to combat such emotions. you dont know how hard it is to see friends against each other.

i really miss you, i really really do. whatever words you say whatever actions you give. i am still gonna keep on trying till the day i finally bleed all i can.

on Vineland past the candle shrine that melts into the street design
she waits - for someone
tonight she'll give herself away
she'll break apart all by herself

johnny, kenny and benny.

2005-04-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

I AM SO ANGRY!!!

my dad doesn't allow me to watch desperate housewives though there's only 30minutes of it.
whatever la. i dont care i am going to town on wednesday. i want that wallet and i want to pierce my tragus again. the shit tragus hole closed when i was on holiday at SABAH. haha.

so finally since after at least 7minutes ago. the super lousy laggy computer finally decided to launch itunes. the poor ipod. heh!

oh yes. i have to 2.4 tomorrow. and jamie yeo and carrie chong's coming to my school. YES MY SCHOOL! : )) from 9am to 10am. waste time only. come a while longer to see the glamourous me during recess!! i'll do the bimbo talk with sasha zhiyi and ziping la! :(( hahaha
oh yes. wish me luck for 2.4 everyone in softball is like 16minutes. and i am like always walking with my 20+++minutes. heh! oh yes. i am gonna run with my ipod. i saw people doing it today. heh! i shall not walk either. HAHA. i wonder if i could stick to that promise. ;) i'll try.

out.

for the girl in blue house:
cos i see you with her, it makes me really jealous. Jealous at what? I am not too sure myself, maybe i'm just selfish. I thought i was your only one; I wanted you all to myself. (not as in love)

for the girl in red house:
Maybe i don't quite get why you avoid me. Maybe i don't quite get why they say you are like "this". Maybe i dont quite get the fact that you wouldn't like me in a million years.
Maybe you dont know that whatever you have done; the good and yes, the bad. I've supported you.

2005-04-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

heh!

i went to play badminton in the afternoon! i am soo.. happy! :))

i am like so obsessed with fayanne now ok! (i was obsessed with her ponytail during the south zone tournament) whahaha! fayanne joined the warren sunday training when i wasn't there. heheh! i am joining back. and jun hao's like so good now. but that uziel. isn't really improving. but always buy good racquet. tsk. HEH! oh my gosh ok! i love badminton like. ALOT ALOT ok! :)) my mum asked me to join cheers. she's crazy. haha! no one to partner. unless meiyi or karen wants to. but meiyi will always be like, i need to study.

GRRRRRRRR. FAYANNE. shit. i love that name ok. fayanne's like so cool ok! oh stop it gwen. you sound sick. grrrrrrrr. hahah! i wanna murder myself. anyway, i have like 3 accounts excercises to do and 1 WHOLE math paper. and i am still sittin here using the computer and i am taking the dog to walk later. ohh grrr. I FEEL SO HORNY USING THE WORD GRRRRRRR.
i miss the softball people ok. :(( haha. we've been like going out so much. i feel so "glued" haha bonded la! and they are having softball camp. i dont want lehh. i wanna dye my hair!

maybe you don't already know, tingxi i have a crush on you.
I really do. And whenever i see you around, you just walk pass me.
You make me feel non-existant; like i don't matter at all.

i dont want YOU and your ugly soul.

2005-04-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

GRRRRR.

oh my goodness ok. the thought of colleen goh is making me pissed off. i dont know why i dont like her, BUT I JUST DONT!! GRRRRRRRR!

i am sorry to that GWQ who used to like her. but its just yuck. i dont understand why i even went to search for her friendster profile! EEEEEEE. anyway. i think she's kinda cute now. ;)

her hair's much nicer than last time. I SWEAR! and if GTSM went to see it, i guess she wouldn't think so bad of her la.

GRRRRR. this is so contradicting. i am criticising her in the first 2 paragraphs and i am saying good things about her. BAH. so shitty.

AHHHHHHHHH!

ahya whatever. do you know i am still waiting to have tuition. and i should have just stayed in town longer lor! GRRR. GRRRRRRRRRRR

anyway, not many people noticed my swollen face. so it's ok. but it hurts. especially during bio and chem and ss. haha

i bought a green bottle! : )) it's so cute ok! grrrr. i am so agitated and whiny and everything.

then want to go to king albert park and study. hahaha. and i can't study like that. i'll feel so out ok. the 2 of them are from express and I, THE FUCKING SHIT is in normal. WHY GWEN?! WHY?!?!

ahh. whatever. bye.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

2005-04-14T19:51:00.000+08:00

BATHURUNISHA IS CRAZY OK!

when i went away from the computer at cookery1 she happily came to blog. SHE BLOGGED ABOUT NONSENSE. -points to the post below- WAHAHA! and she threatened to tell miss goh that i was blogging. but heehee! miss goh knew i was blogging cos she saw. HAHA. my blog's name is called gwenday ook. then miss goh laughed. she's uber mean ok. and i got so pissed off looking for a recipe to do the bloody decision making is decided to stop. :)) and so i went into the aesthetics room or whatever you call it la. and started talking to miss goh about random person and anonymous person. haha! and miss goh told me something quite interesting about random person. but i sort of find her a lil bitchy now cos, SHE DIDN'T REPLY MY MESSAGE. GRRRR. HOW SHE DARE?!?!?!?! but i dont give a fuck* now. i dont care if you still think i _____ her. i still think she's kind off bitchy though i _____ her. haha! ahh. i am so bitchy. oh yes. joanne koh is the most retarded. and quite thoughtful person i've ever seen. ;) haha! ahh i dont know what i am talking about.

BUT I AM FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING* HAPPY OK!!and also rather sad. :((( boohoohooo.

the anonymous person messaged me right after i messaged the random person. it's like so qiao ok! for a moment i thought i messaged the anonymous person what i was suppose to message the random person. ahaha!

I LOVE THE ANONYMOUS PERSON ALOT OK! SHE ROCKS. and LYNETTE! i am really really really sorry for making you think that i hate you and everything ok! i don't hate you! i am in love with you ;) cos you are the only who makes me horny! WAHAHAHAHA! but it's not like you even come here and read my blog. :((

I SHALL GET YOU CRUMPLER MATCHSTICKS TOMORROW IF I GO TO TOWN WITH SMALL GWEN. HEEHEE! : ))) HAHAHA! HOHOHO!!

OH YES. I FORGOT TO ADD WHAT HAPPENED TO DURING TRAINING. HAHA. I WAS CATCHING FOR THE PITCHING MACHINE. THEN KIM CHUA WAS BATTING. SHE BAT A FOUL BALL. AND BANG! it hit my SEXYFUL** PRETTYFUL** , BEAUTIFUL FACE. THEN I WAS LIKE. OH FUCK* IN MY MIND. THEN OK FINE. IT DIDNT REALLY HIT MY FACE IT HIT MY LEFT EYE. SO HAPPILY MY EYELIDS WERE SHUT TIGHT. I SWEAR I COULDN'T OPEN FOR A WHILE. SO I WAS LIKE TRYING TO SPLIT IT OPEN. :(( THEN OPEN LA. THEN I WAS LAUGHING AND CRYING COS I COULDN'T OPEN IT. AHH. SO FUCKED* UP OK. THEN MY EYE WAS LIKE ALL SWOLLEN AND RED. AHAHAH. THEN WHEN I SAW IT SWOLLEN I WAS LIKE CRYING OK. MY BEAUTIFUL FACE SWOLLEN! CANNOT LA! :(( HAHA! THEN AHYA. WAS SO RETARDED OK. ANYWAY. MY FACE STILL HURTS IF I TRY TO DO SOMETHING FUNNY. HAHA. IT FEELS MORE SUNKEN IN THAN THE RIGHT. AHH WELL. ANYWAY IT'S LIKE MUCH BETTER ALREADY. JUST THAT, THAT THE PART IS RED. THE PIMPLES AARE RED TOO. AND SOME EXPLODED DUE TO IMPACT. HA HA! I HOPE IT SWELLS UP REAL BAD TONIGHT! THEN TOMORROW CAN DONT GO SCHOOL! : ))))))) I AM SO BENT ON NOT GOING TO SCHOOL. IT'S SO ROUTINE! : (((((

*cos i am feeling rather vulgar today, but it doesn't really matter cos i am vulgar everyday!
** cos there were no words that i could think of strong enough to describe the beauty of my face.

i LOVE bathuruNISHA!

2005-04-14T09:33:00.000+08:00

haha, gwendolyn is not here.
i'm like updating for her.
HAHAHA, i'm superly bored.
gwen just simply LOVE bathuruNISHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
but she always denies it.

TSK TSK.

2005-04-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

you're lucky i dont come here and rant about my life and how "sucky" it is like some people.

whatever.

why can't i breathe whenever i think about you?
why can't i speak whenever i talk about you?

whatever.